Maybe Your Imposter Syndrome Is Right

Imposter syndrome exists because you are in fact an imposter, or at the very least affecting the social order. It is very real.

Have you ever been deep in imposter syndrome land, full of doubts about yourself, your ability, your place, your motives, your outfit, your everything – and then suddenly someone comes along, and questions you?

Well, I’m sure you have.

This is why job interviews and applications and networking and sharing creative work online and moving to a new place etcetera is really scary and overwhelming. Not only do we feel completely incompetent, but now we have to demonstrate how we’re not. Oh and don’t worry, all that is at stake is everything. Your name, your reputation, your livelihood.

You feel like an imposter, because you are an imposter. You are affecting the social order.

If you don’t want to do that, you’re out of luck.

You feel like an imposter because you’re in a room you haven’t been in before. It means you’ve earned somebody’s respect.

So you are changing the social order.

There’s resistance there.

You might have to move to a bigger city to follow the success. You might go on TV. You might get more money than your peers you’ve grown up with all your life. Or more money than your partner. Or parents.

What do you do with that?
Who do you relate to when that happens?
Who’s on your side?

This is why we are afraid. So very very afraid. We’re afraid of embarrassment, sure. But we’re even more afraid of being good. Terrified. Success is scary as fuck.

Because the price we pay for it, is literally everything we’ve ever known.

Should you go for it anyway?

If you are so inclined, I don’t think you have a choice.

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